16 April 2017

#FTT III

 Someone I love, my family member, my hero, just said this to me and mom during dinner, "because I may not be able to do this anymore in the future."

And friends, do you know what that means? Yes?

Death is indeed inevitable.

We, the hoomans, can't do anything except for surviving and living his/her life. We love, get angry, be happy, enjoy, laugh, cry, break things apart (or even people apart), having sins, you name the rest. I love my life, of course, there may be some setbacks and misfortunes, but that too shall pass. However, some may end it right before their eyes just like that. We make our own choices, whether or not, it is true. Nothing can stop us except for ourselves. Religion? We believe in our own gods, we seek forgiveness, pray and hope that our voices can be heard. I believe in that too myself. But we're the ones who control ourselves, our minds, our actions on earth. Cancers, illnesses, diseases, we are the ones who created them, aren't we? We are animals. We pollute our mother earth, and we can't stop, because that's just how we get through our rough lives.

We are alllllllllllll making our way through, we are trying our best.

Politics? Even better.

Btw, I'm getting off-topic lol. What I'm trying to rant a lil here, is that, why do someone just dont realise that we care for them? That they mean and actually matter to someone...?

Maybe I'm selfish, I don't want to feel this way when we eventually need to. I am not ready to lose the people I really loved. and somemore, I really get depressed fast after learning that death is inevitable. I'm afraid of it. Even the word death scares me to death.

Its okay. felt better at least, after venting my thoughts out here where no one will see except for me myself and I.

update:
just another depress night

i know i will be better tomorrow :) i trust god n myself

Good bye

11 April 2017

#FTT II


It's just one week away to the first day of school, in a completely new environment, and there we go, a new chapter begins. First day of school - more like the first day of orientation camp for me. Well, I have no idea why, but different courses or perhaps, different school starts at different timing. As for me, I start a bit later. What I'm feeling right now? One word - nervous. That is very common to all freshies, likewise, first day. My school is located a bit further than my secondary school this time, so yes, I'm gonna wake up earlier, and GRAB!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAH JOKING. I am addicted to grabbing, but MONEY MONEY MONEY, WHERE ARE YOU???? Oh. Riiiiiight. I am jobless. For the past 4-5 months. Awesome. Just coz......i'm Miss Lazy. Lol. No, not kidding this time.

And, speaking of different school, ahhh, my friends. I missed them already. Most of my friends have already started school, and some are also anticipating it in a week's time just like me. I'm afraid my sec school friends will forget about me, plus, I might not be as 'open' as before if I make new friends. I'm afraid that if I make new friends, they will think I'm weird. Hahaha, such a crazy thought by Penny, right? I feel that they may judge me for the things I do, I act, I feel. Most importantly, I'm afraid they might think I am a very boring person.

I don't know what will happen on the first day, but let's just hope for the best. I sincerely hope that I can laugh in the most ugliest manner a girl could ever laugh, at least... Teehee.

Ciao for now ~

Update: Friendships? I am tired of my best friend kept assuming that I do not care about our friendship these days. My best friend is my sister, I can't live without her. Not naming who tho. She matters a lot to me, and I treat her like my own family. But what's getting me mad about is that she thinks I've forgotten how important our friendship was, and that I am living my life my own, with my other friends. This is making me mad and sad as well. Where's the trust in me? Sometimes the time is not right for me when you asked me out for lunch or dinner, because I REALLY GOT SOMETHING ON. I will make time for you I promise, but sometimes the time is not right for me. To be real honest, this whole situation makes me feel really fucking damn useless. I'm sorry I'm not good enough then.

02 April 2017

CLUBPENGUIN IS BACK?




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KEEDING!!!!!!!!!!!! APRIL FOOLS!

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Isn't today the 2nd of April already?
*facepalm*
SO IM NOT KIDDING!!!!!!!!!!  okay, i gotta stop lol.

Well, Clubpenguin's dead. YES, OUR CHILDHOOD, GONE, LIKE THAT.
BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTT hold on.......
There's a private server online called CPPS, it's the same as clubpenguin, but more of a safer...or i should say, a more lower-standard game? I mean, everything's fun, they're the same, but it lags, and they're having a Christmas theme right now when it is already April. Only around 150 peeps are online right now, so it's still as new as it seems to be. It's quite boring too like that. Well, WHAT COULD I SAY? CLUBPENGUIN IS BACK, well at least for me. :P

thank me later, adios!
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