16 April 2017

#FTT III

 Someone I love, my family member, my hero, just said this to me and mom during dinner, "because I may not be able to do this anymore in the future."

And friends, do you know what that means? Yes?

Death is indeed inevitable.

We, the hoomans, can't do anything except for surviving and living his/her life. We love, get angry, be happy, enjoy, laugh, cry, break things apart (or even people apart), having sins, you name the rest. I love my life, of course, there may be some setbacks and misfortunes, but that too shall pass. However, some may end it right before their eyes just like that. We make our own choices, whether or not, it is true. Nothing can stop us except for ourselves. Religion? We believe in our own gods, we seek forgiveness, pray and hope that our voices can be heard. I believe in that too myself. But we're the ones who control ourselves, our minds, our actions on earth. Cancers, illnesses, diseases, we are the ones who created them, aren't we? We are animals. We pollute our mother earth, and we can't stop, because that's just how we get through our rough lives.

We are alllllllllllll making our way through, we are trying our best.

Politics? Even better.

Btw, I'm getting off-topic lol. What I'm trying to rant a lil here, is that, why do someone just dont realise that we care for them? That they mean and actually matter to someone...?

Maybe I'm selfish, I don't want to feel this way when we eventually need to. I am not ready to lose the people I really loved. and somemore, I really get depressed fast after learning that death is inevitable. I'm afraid of it. Even the word death scares me to death.

Its okay. felt better at least, after venting my thoughts out here where no one will see except for me myself and I.

update:
just another depress night

i know i will be better tomorrow :) i trust god n myself

Good bye

11 April 2017

#FTT II


It's just one week away to the first day of school, in a completely new environment, and there we go, a new chapter begins. First day of school - more like the first day of orientation camp for me. Well, I have no idea why, but different courses or perhaps, different school starts at different timing. As for me, I start a bit later. What I'm feeling right now? One word - nervous. That is very common to all freshies, likewise, first day. My school is located a bit further than my secondary school this time, so yes, I'm gonna wake up earlier, and GRAB!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAH JOKING. I am addicted to grabbing, but MONEY MONEY MONEY, WHERE ARE YOU???? Oh. Riiiiiight. I am jobless. For the past 4-5 months. Awesome. Just coz......i'm Miss Lazy. Lol. No, not kidding this time.

And, speaking of different school, ahhh, my friends. I missed them already. Most of my friends have already started school, and some are also anticipating it in a week's time just like me. I'm afraid my sec school friends will forget about me, plus, I might not be as 'open' as before if I make new friends. I'm afraid that if I make new friends, they will think I'm weird. Hahaha, such a crazy thought by Penny, right? I feel that they may judge me for the things I do, I act, I feel. Most importantly, I'm afraid they might think I am a very boring person.

I don't know what will happen on the first day, but let's just hope for the best. I sincerely hope that I can laugh in the most ugliest manner a girl could ever laugh, at least... Teehee.

Ciao for now ~

Update: Friendships? I am tired of my best friend kept assuming that I do not care about our friendship these days. My best friend is my sister, I can't live without her. Not naming who tho. She matters a lot to me, and I treat her like my own family. But what's getting me mad about is that she thinks I've forgotten how important our friendship was, and that I am living my life my own, with my other friends. This is making me mad and sad as well. Where's the trust in me? Sometimes the time is not right for me when you asked me out for lunch or dinner, because I REALLY GOT SOMETHING ON. I will make time for you I promise, but sometimes the time is not right for me. To be real honest, this whole situation makes me feel really fucking damn useless. I'm sorry I'm not good enough then.

02 April 2017

CLUBPENGUIN IS BACK?




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KEEDING!!!!!!!!!!!! APRIL FOOLS!

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Isn't today the 2nd of April already?
*facepalm*
SO IM NOT KIDDING!!!!!!!!!!  okay, i gotta stop lol.

Well, Clubpenguin's dead. YES, OUR CHILDHOOD, GONE, LIKE THAT.
BUTTTTTTTTTTTTTT hold on.......
There's a private server online called CPPS, it's the same as clubpenguin, but more of a safer...or i should say, a more lower-standard game? I mean, everything's fun, they're the same, but it lags, and they're having a Christmas theme right now when it is already April. Only around 150 peeps are online right now, so it's still as new as it seems to be. It's quite boring too like that. Well, WHAT COULD I SAY? CLUBPENGUIN IS BACK, well at least for me. :P

thank me later, adios!

24 March 2017

Good week with them

Overnight at my bestie's condominium for the weekend! After Qingyi ended work, we headed straight to the place to put down our bags and stuff first, and then went to a nearby Pasar Malam (night market) to grab some snacks (and literally get fat). Had 3 kebabs, 2 sugarcane drinks, qingyi got garrett's popcorn..............big bellies here we come.

Nevertheless, we played a couple of mobile games together, chilled, watched a movie and slept at right before the sun rises.....shh... We got up at around 10am, went for a swim and sun tan, took pictures and chilled again, went back to the place and have a shower... and then rushed to work, only for qingyi. I am jobless. Oops, HAHA! Great weekend :)
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sun tan with qing yi, aka the pig :P
On Monday, it was one of my best friend's birthday, Kai Sheng. Yay to legal age! We had a short meet up together with Hanyi and Shaowei :) It's been long! 
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a must for wefie after our lunch at Morganfield's!
On a later week, Thursday, I had meetup with my old-but-gold classmates! Technically, only a few of us can make it. Firstly, Sab, Dah, Qingyi and I watched 'Beauty and the Beast' movie in the morning (the movie was amazing), and then headed to a coffee shop near our secondary school to have our usual lunch together with Joy and Ron, oh whenever we had to stay back for art.......cue the nostalgic moments.... good ol' days. After savouring our scrumptious black pepper chicken chops, we went back to school to collect our testimonials and certificate, where we met our math teacher, Mr Ragu. To be real honest, he's one good teacher, friend, and brother to us. We even saw our Chemistry teacher, Ms Shahidah, also one of the best teachers I've had during my secondary school days. We wanted to meet our art teacher, to collect back our art O level canvases, but she's on a course. :( After that, Mr Ragu treated us Ice Kacang, yummy yum yum! I hoped all of us will stay in contact when school starts.................man, college, Y U SO FAST COME.
another must-wefie! *adds in Ron*
Friday aye aye! Kate came over, we chilled, watched 'Moana', yas my favourite disney princess right now. And I missed her! Really great to spend some time with this gal right here.

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blackheads, off you go!!!!!!!

21 March 2017

#FreeTheThoughts

So basically I wanna do this thing of series, um, well, just freeing the thoughts outta my head? I do this on my diary, but I thought that I want my diary to be full of happy things instead, so when I grow older and look back, it will put a smile on my face rather than a frown.

First of all, I'm not a negative person myself. Whenever things go wrong, of course I might get into a nasty situation first but also work out a way to solve the problem second. I tend to get affected by little things as well, but again, I will tell myself that this too shall pass. It's just a bad day, not a bad life right? :) 

But sometimes, I need to pour my thoughts out, vent it on papers and whatnot. This time, I want to have this in a different way. I do have a blog, here, why not vent it here? My diary is literally full of rants, most are because of art.... hahaha! Those art days....the stress....bruh. So now, I wanna start this #FreeTheThoughts thing here. Hmm let's start with a simple one..., 

WHAT HAVE I DONE IN MY LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG HOLIDAYS?!
I didn't work. Well I did find a job, but there's no news. Lol, and I didn't put in an effort into settling on one? Interviewed at Uniqlo, but nothing came back. Way to go. All I did were watching movies, updating my sketch book, reading more books, spending more time with families and friends, which were not bad as well. Not forgetting, I gained more kilos, and more food? What else, less exercising? Hahahahahahha, in a nutshell, I became real lazy. = love hate 

Yawn. 

Starting to read another book too! The diary of Anne Frank. Can't wait to finish it. Oh, sucha bookworm lol.

Also, Ed Sheeran's album: DIVIDE is on replay. THE BEST.
DIVIDE playlist

Ok
Bye for now. 

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16 March 2017

Best friend's debut

"The Debut is a traditional Filipino coming-of-age celebration which celebrates a young woman's 18th birthday, the age of maturity in the Philippine."

So my best friend for 10 years today, Kate, had her debut on 4th March! 

Yes, that's her birthday. 

So.. in her culture & tradition, she have to celebrate her 18th birthday by making the party into a seemingly grandeur theme, also speaking, her theme was Hollywood!

Yasssssss girl, you made the right choice. HAHA! 

It was eventful, aaaand of course a splendid one. She had her 18 dances with the guys, which definitely included her dancing with her dad. And that moment broke me apart. Tear-jerking. I dont know, I just felt so touched, and the love brooooooooooooooooooooooooooo THE LOVE WAS IN THE AIR.

Also, she had her 18 stars with the girls, whereby the girls closest to the birthday girl needed to go up on stage and say their wishes or appreciation speech. Well, when it was my turn, I teared up even before saying what I intended to say. I felt really proud of her, and I'm really grateful to have met her and sailed a decade of friendship together. Technically, yeah she's like a sis to me soooo.

Oooooooookie, lez just admire the visual moments now shall we?

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*whistles*

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her stage 

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um.. so there's a swing in the vicinity... and i love swings... SO WHY NOT ;D

wefie with the queen!


14 March 2017

USS with the best

Some of us were not that close during sec 4 days, but who cares now? We are now like brothers and sisters, thanks to us being brave, and went up to sec 5 to give a shot on O levels! Everything happens for a reason they say, and this is our reason. Tbh, sec 5 made my secondary school days better, despite the stress on O's.. thanks to my classmates, and these bimbos. These were the ones who stayed with me through 2016, and rocked it with our plain silliness. *shakes head*

so thankful for yall. :)

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group pic!
"eh, where to place the camera?!"
"aiya on the chair la..."

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girls in the toilet = selfie time!
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weeeeeee, got all wet.......

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resting outside Starbucks, with no Starbucks. 


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admiring the sunset....or just taking pictures?

12 March 2017

iLight @ Marina Bay

A night with my best friends, Shulin and Susan. Had Thai Mookata first, and then headed to Marina Bay for this iLight festival. It was not as fun as many said it was, just so-so. Lights were beautiful, the way they're put up. :) But not much stuff to enjoy, besides Uncle Ringo...Gastrobeats, and a......Silent Party - basically a disco but with headphones on. (umm..)

We all chilled at the bay for the whole night and enjoyed the Sg view... Pretty chilly too. All's good! 
Except when we missed the last train......and luckily there's grab hitch available for me at that point in time. *smiles sheepishly* 
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Singapore's city lights, amazing combination? Yes!
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"ART-ZOO", an inflatable park for all! Uhem, not free btw... haha.

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Tried this with Shulin and Susan, ehhh.. gulped some Somersby after this...just nope.

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Neon rocks and LED lights in bottles 

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"Northern lights"

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LED Lighted house

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Rainbow hues 

10 March 2017

Aussie

Me and my family went to Australia for a short getaway from our hectic home. Basically, we landed on Melbourne first, and then had an hour and a half flight to an island called Tasmania. And guess what... Tasmania blew me away. Metaphorically and sort of physically... hahaha. Tasmania was super windy, and COLD. The family regretted not buying good jackets. I mean, seriously though, that place was literally changing seasons all day long. My brother in law told me that before the change of seasons (Aus is going to have summer soon), we will experience rain. And it did. It rained for a couple of times, but with the cold wind blowing too, we would just snuggle in our Airbnb apartments. Speaking of apartments, we had like 5 different apartments from place to place. Really cozy! However, there was one that's kind of shady, the owner was, too. But it's okay, it was just one night. And that night though, there was a group of another asians, I think they were from Hong Kong, cuz they spoke Cantonese...and they said they booked our place too..even weirder, it was the same owner as well! Luckily we got here first...if not...we'd have to find another apartment in the cold, cold night. The best apartment was the last one, 2 nights yassss, in Melbourne. My own room was lit. Haha. It was amazing, no lie. Gosh, writing this made me miss Aussie so much!

Also, we visited many parks and reserves in Tasmania. And again, it blew me off. I can't stop saying that. Haha! We visited popular tourist areas like Mt. Wellington, yes and that....IT BLEW ME OFF. HAHAHAHA REALLY BLEW ME OFF!!!! We got to the summit of that mountain, the view was freaking breathtaking, but I can't breathe easily....the wind was so strong! We got pictures taken, but my iphone kept dying due to the very cold temperature. We too visited Freycinet National Park. That was when we bought a $55 Wombat toy, just cause my dad likes it. Hahaha! But that toy accompanied me every night since then..so.......... :P 

The last day in Tasmania...we spent it by spending money. YES, SHOPPING TIME, at Salamanca Market. People were lively, everything was. And ya, the people in Australia...so so so friendly, and kind, and bubbly! Although I mistook the amount of money I had to pay for the food in a cafe, $13, but I thought the cashier said $30. Sorry lady. Hahahaha! 

Not to forget, the animals.. there were countless of em! Their wallabies..man, they're so friendly and cute! But in Tasmania, who can forget about their Tasmanian Devil!! 

Last but not least in the island, we hunt and literally chased for the southern lights. We sort of saw it, but looked like we didn't. I don't know whether they're sourthern lights or not. I saw a little greenish flowy sky sorta thing, gosh i dont know how to describe, but they looked like clouds as well. So I really doubt it. Nonetheless, there was a galaxy of stars! Astronomical ones. Beautiful. Like the milky way, which they have the white white flowy thing surrounding the stars? Yeah...really beautiful. Wanted to capture them on my phone, but to no avail, all I could capture was the color black. So that point of time, I just appreciate it with my eyes, and also hoping my eyes could do the capture. xD 

We returned to Melbourne for the last 3 days in Aussie, and we shopped, ate, a lot, and just walked around the city. It was all good. Nothing much of a difference from Singapore too, just a city, but with fresh air, and clear blue skies. And the people there were not as agitated as the people here in Singapore... 

By the way, the Chinese food there was a no-no. Haha, overall the food there was fine, but just not Chinese...

And I even sent a mail to myself from Australia, and it took one week to come! Hahaha I felt so....wow. Much misses already. Zzzz

I'm not going to upload all my pictures taken, because there's a ton of em. Too many to be uploaded. Haha, just going to share a few here, for memories, for when I look back to my blog in the next 10 years.

Just to end off now, Australia was amazing. Melbourne and Tasmania! Would love to go there again. Really.. :) 
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This was what they meant by 'clear blue skies'..... Melbourne, such a great city!
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Beautiful Ferris Wheel in Docklands!  
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The zookeeper purposely fed this camel near me and this cute one eventually sorta "hug" me. Ah, cute! I also learned that there are too many camels in Australia, just too many..
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Good close up of a zebra. Their stripes are just like our humans' fingerprints, very unique.
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Tasmanian Devil! What a lazy one here..

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Sun was about to set when we're on the plane back to Singapore. Beautiful. x

25 January 2017

New beginning

Right, I went on a hiatus after the second half of year 2016 until now.

Because I've got to focus on my O levels, which I didn't focused as much as N levels time, but I still got a desired result! Hold on, you may think that, "What? So you planned to focus on your exams but not as much as last previous years, and yet you managed to sustain an even better result?"

Yes, that's absolutely right. I am not boasting or whatnot, but that was really true.

Of course, I did study hard, doing and completing the heavy assignments every single day and night, doing personal notes and catching up on subjects I'd missed while I'm sick. However, I didn't force myself to memorise everything like I used to previously. Up to now, I finally realised that hard work really do pay off, and that all you need to do is to be consistent. Do not ever force yourself to do what you can't. Plan everything equally and you can definitely do everything right on schedule.

I spent most of my time not stressing myself over everything in 2016, and to laugh out loud every now and then. I loved 2016 and it was an awesome year for me, despite some little situations (but it's all well now).

I've never felt so joyful upon receiving my O level results, definitely was in high spirits!

However, I'm so so so gonna miss my best friends in school & the ones who stayed and supported each other in sec 5.

besties gathering for christmas (missing Haidah, Shairah and Kai Sheng)

my fans 

talking about school's last moments with our math teacher

wefie with our adorable english teacher!

ending with a jump shot guys!

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